Depressed...
As of today, I have decided that my future with a chemistry degree is pretty bleak.
All during work today, I have heard nothing but how much my coworkers hate their job, and how they are all off finding something bigger and better. Which typically they don't, and they end up going back to school. Taking something else.
Another one of my coworkers is going to quit soon. That leaves 2 people for sample prep...me and the lazy chick. What am I going to do? The coworker who is quitting, arrived two years ago from China. In broken English she told me, "It is better for you to find something else while you can Karen....the wage here is not very good". Whoa. This is pretty bad coming from a lady from China....
So what am I going to do? I have no idea. I wonder now if I am going to slave away at 11.50 an hour with 5-6 years of university education, 1 year worth of industry experience, and be miserable for the rest of my life. I am starting to wonder if this is all worth it. This chem degree takes a lot of blood and sweat work coming from me. Although I am not a superstar in school, every mark is slaved away. If I knew this was the end, I should have went into Econ or Management, something more practical, and at least I would have ended up with a job that pays more than 11.50 an hour.
I mean...5-6 years so higher education..only to find a low paying job..which you hate...and then you end up going back to school again. It's like "wha???" I thought I went to school for 4 years so I wouldn't have to come back. I mean..then what's the whole point? I should have just went to Sait and did a diploma there.
So I have no idea what to do. I can quit while I'm ahead...say screw off to the UofC and go to Sait and take something more practical. Of I can grind my teeth and bear through it. End up working at another lab..or worse..this lab....and be unhappy.
Although I know that to find a job that you love and one that loves you is pretty much impossible. I know that if you find a job that you like, it's only liking it for a certain amount of time, before you before to not like it anymore. But I really believe this situation is different. I mean, even if you don't like your job, at least you are still getting well paid for it. Here, it's like, people are so miserable, and you get paid shit. There is absolutly no incentive to stay.
And I mean....you have a degree...and you still get paid 11.50 an hour. It's like..oh my god.... telemarkers out there get paid more than me. I mean, Cindy works at shaw part time...gets paid more than me AND friggin part time benefits!!! I mean..what the hell!!!! For my company that is, not her, of course. What can I do for 11.50 an hour in the future? It'll do nothing. When I graduate, I'll have a billion loans, payment for this this and that, and I'll want to save up for my future....buy myself a pretty little house....with a pretty little car...and take vacations once in a while. I can't do that on 11.50 an hour. It'll get me no where.
I have no idea what I am gonna do...or what I want to do. But I think I have to decide soon, or make a plan soon, cause the future is really not too far. But if all of my coworkers see no future here, then chances are...I probably won't either.
Oh gosh...this is all too depressing..
Karen
All during work today, I have heard nothing but how much my coworkers hate their job, and how they are all off finding something bigger and better. Which typically they don't, and they end up going back to school. Taking something else.
Another one of my coworkers is going to quit soon. That leaves 2 people for sample prep...me and the lazy chick. What am I going to do? The coworker who is quitting, arrived two years ago from China. In broken English she told me, "It is better for you to find something else while you can Karen....the wage here is not very good". Whoa. This is pretty bad coming from a lady from China....
So what am I going to do? I have no idea. I wonder now if I am going to slave away at 11.50 an hour with 5-6 years of university education, 1 year worth of industry experience, and be miserable for the rest of my life. I am starting to wonder if this is all worth it. This chem degree takes a lot of blood and sweat work coming from me. Although I am not a superstar in school, every mark is slaved away. If I knew this was the end, I should have went into Econ or Management, something more practical, and at least I would have ended up with a job that pays more than 11.50 an hour.
I mean...5-6 years so higher education..only to find a low paying job..which you hate...and then you end up going back to school again. It's like "wha???" I thought I went to school for 4 years so I wouldn't have to come back. I mean..then what's the whole point? I should have just went to Sait and did a diploma there.
So I have no idea what to do. I can quit while I'm ahead...say screw off to the UofC and go to Sait and take something more practical. Of I can grind my teeth and bear through it. End up working at another lab..or worse..this lab....and be unhappy.
Although I know that to find a job that you love and one that loves you is pretty much impossible. I know that if you find a job that you like, it's only liking it for a certain amount of time, before you before to not like it anymore. But I really believe this situation is different. I mean, even if you don't like your job, at least you are still getting well paid for it. Here, it's like, people are so miserable, and you get paid shit. There is absolutly no incentive to stay.
And I mean....you have a degree...and you still get paid 11.50 an hour. It's like..oh my god.... telemarkers out there get paid more than me. I mean, Cindy works at shaw part time...gets paid more than me AND friggin part time benefits!!! I mean..what the hell!!!! For my company that is, not her, of course. What can I do for 11.50 an hour in the future? It'll do nothing. When I graduate, I'll have a billion loans, payment for this this and that, and I'll want to save up for my future....buy myself a pretty little house....with a pretty little car...and take vacations once in a while. I can't do that on 11.50 an hour. It'll get me no where.
I have no idea what I am gonna do...or what I want to do. But I think I have to decide soon, or make a plan soon, cause the future is really not too far. But if all of my coworkers see no future here, then chances are...I probably won't either.
Oh gosh...this is all too depressing..
Karen
posted by Karen at
4:55 PM
3 Comments:
KareBear =P
Just dropped by your blog today and read your new entry. Sorry to hear that you're not enjoying your job too much and that you are feeling quite bleak about your future prospects. If it makes you feel any better, I have times when I doubt if engineering was the way to go for me and if I should go back school for something else. I think that being able to find a job that you'll really love after you graduate is a somewhat rare and lucky thing. And even if you do find a job that you'll like 85% of the time, there's still the 15% that will really bore you. So the way I look at it, its a matter of finding a field you can imagine working in and enjoying for MOST of the time, regardless of the money you make. If chemistry really peaks your interest then don't let go because of a current low paying job; you might end up doing something that you won't really enjoy and be unhappy with, despite a higher pay. Haha, sorry for the preaching! Just wanted to let you know that you're not alone. I hope that things will get better for you soon. =)
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Anonymous, at 11:48 PM
Well, I don't have too much working experience on the field of chemistry, so I cannot say too much at all. But stay calm, there has to be a reason why they are offering a chemistry degree in university, but not like a degree in road repairing or toilet cleaning. Think it another way, you can still work in office with a chemistry degree. I am certain that there are some jobs that really cares about having a degree or not, regardless of what degree you holds. Take it easy!
It would be hard to switch to study any other things than getting a chemistry degree now (you have 2 more courses to go right?). Take something else practical in SAIT afterward. I can see in the future, all people have to study and work to keep up with the pace of the society. So I think you should be prepared to go back to school later on in your life. In fact, learning is fun after all, assuming you are learning things that you are interested in.
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Anonymous, at 1:07 AM
Karen..
Remember - your first job after university may not pay very much now, but as long as you have at least some work experience in your field (in your case, chemistry) it will definitely open the doors for you in the future. Its nice to think that we would all come out of university with a secure, high paying job immediately after we graduate, but I'm sure that with more work experience, you'll do fine. I think it would be good to finish your degree first (since you're almost done anyways) and see where that takes you, because that's the direction you seem to be heading anyways. And if you still don't like it, then you can always go back and get another degree or diploma in another field, which would make your resume look even more impressive.
Which brings me to my next point. Although you'll be graduating soon, I'm sure that you will find that you will never stop learning in life... when we get older, we'll most likely go back to school and take some courses now and then to upgrade our skills as technology is constantly changing with time. Meanwhile, I'm sure that you'll find out what you love to do in the future, so hang in there! Its almost over =)
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